Same things always happen to me on friday. Usually ppl should be happy on fri, last day of school for the week whereas for my case, i'm like having my weakest module, business finance, as my last lesson of the day. Everytime after this lesson i will feel so dam stress and sad. Dono why. I just don understand this module at all. Solutions given by ppl are ask lecturer, get notes from frenz, ask ur frenz etc. So today i tried asking the teacher, so lucky that he also wana revise wif us for our test and allow us to ask him qn. Although i took the opportunity to ask him budden i still don understand at all. Tried to get tutorials ans from senior who lent me her notes last sem. She didnt wana lend it to me this time round so i guess i have used up all my options. I guess the only choice now is to force myself to understand this module wif god's help. I just feel so helpless wif this module esp when i have no accounting background. Well i hope everything will turns out fine in the end and also i don wana feel so stress but i just cant control it.
Gotten back my ComToolkit first test back le, dam disappointing, the lecturer said i can only gotten a C, even after moderation i wont be able to get even a C+. This sure is a big blow to me afterall i aimed to score well for IS this sem cause last sem it was one of my module and IS that pulls me down. Thoughts just kept running through my mind. If only i can just lead a carefree life.

Was supposed to go gym with andy today but he was busy with his project and i'm also too. So in the end i stayed at home to finish my body part of my project. Luckily janice released us earlier so that i can go home earlier and complete that dam tedious ITL project. Although i'm relieved to finish the most tedious part of my ITL project budden thinking of the number of projects i still have, around 5 more if i'm nt wrong, i felt so stress. This sem is really tough, no time to even take a break. I wonder hw long i can keep up with my exercises programmes with some of my friends. Still got music part to focus. Too many commitments. Suffocating already. Well hope i can somehow relax myself. Guess is partly because of the results i wish to get makes me so stress.

First time skipping my cello lesson. It must means i have have something really impt to do tht cause to actually skip such impt lesson to me also. This is my first time having project or hw for all seven modules. Haha. Buy TOTO also not so lucky lo. Feeling honoured??? HAha. Ytd n this morning went to play basketball, hoping i can cut off more of my calories and FATS! Today many ppl ps us. A few didnt come, those that turn up was me, xiong, Leong and ben low. It was fun though, and i got to exercise again eh but ben sprained his ankle n i hurt my finger. Sure is painful, can feel the pain when i play my cello. Haha. Tml got appointment wif kah poh for jogging and mon another appointment with andy for gyming. Thank u lord for giving me so many chances this few days to exercise. I guess now i just have to cut down on my diet. Well well looking forward to meeting andy also. Long time nvr seen him le.
I wonder how m i going to finish this whole chunks of works. Hmm it will takes quite some time. Xiong wana play pool later so hmm nt sure if i can go though. Dam busy but i need to rest a while also.

Finally, i get to start doing my 2 projects le. Last week didnt have the time. For business finance i tried asking some1 but she didnt wana teach me though. lol But thanks to my teammate teck HENG who tried to teach me patiently although i took a very long time to understand. And also for ITL, thanks to simon who is so cooperative and willing to spend more time trying to do the project together. I guess i should be happy to group with both of them for the 2 module.

Got to know another girl from lmgt who actually top the 3 module i find the hardest to understand. Awesome isnt it? Glad i gotten some notes but lol cause i think my knowledge for the particular module arent that deep yet so i cant understand. Lol. She's busy also so i a bit ps to trouble her also. Well well just have to study on my own ba.

Anywhere i wonder who this rough guy is. Threaten me huh. I guess i been through one already. No point being scare bout it afterall i'm surrounded by friends who would stand up for me. Well this guy sure gets on my nerve. Haha

Same thing. Distraction here and there. How i wish i can just change a class with all friends that willing to work hard n play only at the right time. Had business finance lesson today, instead of learning something, i feel so stressed wif it. Looking at hw the others r able to attempt the tutorial qn while i cant, i dono wad to do. Asked some of them but they said they just anyhow did it, dono hw to do also. Lol. Well for now business finance sure's a headache for me.

Tml will be a long day for me also. Early in the morning got dental appointment-FOC, cool right? Then go straight to school for violin follow by cello lesson. Sure can relax myself a bit but thinking of the amt of work that needs to be done. STRESS again. Lolx. I guess maybe it's because i wana score well for exam so i feel so stress when i cant get something on my head.

Stress stress n stress!!! It's so dam irritating. This weekends got dam lots of homework to do. Starting doing businessCA n econs but couldnt do anything. Felt so stress nw. Whenever i cant do my hw, i just cant help blaming myself for being so bloody stupid to be distracted n go n play games during lessons. It's too hard to study under so many distractions. It's true gaming is fun but nt during lesson! I hope NERDS can just surround me. Study study n STUDY!!!! SiGh...

WooHOO!!! My musical recording for X' mas finally ended this morning. Next week must focus on my studies liao. Haha. Yesterday night i went over to jian fan's studio at Methodist School of Music. My first time playing cello in a studio. Dam cool sia. N guo fa drove me home after that. Haha. I made it just in time for my anime. Haha.

After concert hui yun said she wana take pic wif th n i. Haha. Took 3 pic in total cause brandon said it wasnt nicely taken. Haha. Seems like my spec reflects upon the camera flash. Looks cool huh silvery spec. Haha.

Concert just finished. Haha. Finally!!! Dont need to coordinate liao. HAHA!!! The concert went off quite smoothly n the last part was so touching sia, maybe to us the members of NPS. My frenz was saying the last part was too draggy. Haha. A new boy band is appearing in NPS soon. The "7788" HAHA! The next T'ang Quartet. 2 cellist n 3 violinist. I feel a sense of belonging to the NPS n cant bear to quit haha. Well, at least nw i got a place to chill off wif my good frenz at the club house. Haha!
Thinking of school works n happening. I would only say a "bad" haha. This sem de module quite alot must memorise sia. Nt easy. I hate memorising. Well in any case, i hope i can stay away from temptation of playing games in class. Haha. But eh even i listen, i'm still easily distracted by gamers around me. Haha. Jia lak sia. Well well above is a pic taken after my first concert wif the NPS. HAHA.

Concert's this sat. Sure is fast. Not easy to coordinate the ppl also. Looking at the back stage ppl, i finally understand why ppl always say they admire the back stage hero. Their jobs r even tougher. I think the only that stress me is i play the violin den coordiante the ppl for next song follow by playing the cello den coordiante n coordinate. A bit rush for me. Anyway hope i will recover from my illness b4 sat.

Today de IS class was terrible. I chose to join a grp wif all girls. Then the other guys just sat there so in the end they form 2 grps among themselves den i'm like the only guy wif the girls. Dam awkward. Maybe i think too much but well, i just don wish to see ppl talking behind me cause i'm the only guy. Lol. But well, last sem de IS i grp wif guys so nw wif girls. Let see if my points for IS will be better this sem or nt.

Dam tired! Finally back from camp. Looking back at the camp hmm something good is i know more ppl from the same cca as me liao. Got my own clique liao. Haha. Sha, TH, lionel n horace. Da jia hao, wo men shi "5566" HAHA. The rehearsal on sat, was a real time disaster for me. No time to coordinate at all. Well, just hope everything will turn out much more easier n better during the next rehearsal.

Passed by bpmc when i went home but didnt alight cause i was too tired. The moment i finish bathing, the next thing i realised is i'm already sleeping haha. Too tired to even move. Btw, feel proud i get actually play the violin during the concert. Haha. Finally, it has started........

Tml camp le. Hmm hope it will be fun. Staying at home also nth to do. Tried to chiong all those musical recording de songs le. Some pieces sounds weird when i play it wif the song going on. Den have to change this n tht. HAHA. Tedious work. Still have blank here n there cause i don really know how to write out the score. But something good is i'm more familiarise with musical notes nw. Haha.

Thinking back of sunday. Having sherry to actually drive me home from church. Haha. So cool. Seriously i can really feel the love that each n every bro n sis in christ have for each other. So warm. It would really be troublesome to travel back home by bus wif this big guy - cello. Well well tml camp i need to bring the big guy all the way to sch again cause sunday need to use it again. Haha. But well at least nw there's some1 who understand hw troublesome it is to bring this big guy out. Haha.

A stressful n tired day hAha. Thanks to v^3 (vian, na, von) and gab for coming over to help me out for the upcoming church de musical recording thing. It sure is tough for me at first due to my weak sight reading. Thanks to them i was able to at least learn one piece today. Guess it's more than enough. The left over pieces, min le will be helping me out in writing out a proper cello score. Feel so bad to trouble her but at the moment when i receive the scores, everything went blank, dono wad to do. Better nt talk bout those scores le, for nw it will only makes me feel more stress.

Recently or should i say since last time, i was always having mood swing. Wonder why, although i didnt really show it out but when my mood swing, i will feel so tired. Sometimes i kinda feel that accepting others just like hw god accept us is really important. But it seems this isnt an easy task. It's about testing ur patience i suppose, to be able to stand wad ppl say bout u. Well well well i think the best thing is still the CHR motto - Pray & Work!

People once said u have only one time in your life so why not just relax and enjoy to the fullest. However for me, it seems nt to be the case. Too many worries. How to get rid of it? Lolx.
Need to slim down, study well n get into uni, get into SAF music and drama, where should my family move our house, find a job that suits me so that i can earn money and not rot at home during holiday. So much worries.

Yesterday night i just prayed, hoping i can find a job maybe this ending soon de holiday or my next long holiday. Today my frenz just called me asking me if i wan to work wif him. Just for 3 days. Somehow it's better than nth but it just seems so funny to just work for that 2 days (can only make it for 2 days nia). N cause it's just so sudden, i had already planned my schedule also so decided not to work. I'm just so weird, just the way i think. When i finally gotten that something i want, i decided to let it go. It just seems so stupid. Well i hope god will grant me wisdom so that i can at least know wad i truely want.

Yesterday morning went to play basketball wif samuel, elson, teck meng, kah poh and isaac. No 1 there so we're able to play w/o distraction. It was really fun to gather together again. Sadly some of them starts school on next mon liao. After the game kah poh, samuel n i went to buy some games. I kind of regretted buying one of the games cause it seems like it's nt wad i wanted. Haha. In any case, it sure is nice to have some new games finally. Come to think of it, there's still some games my friend gave me which i haven play yet. Lol.

Woke up at 10am today n had to rush to bpmc for fellowing? Gathering i think. Only gina CHAN, vina, honey n i were present. The others went missing. Had a nice chat n i went over to sch for my cca n also lunch wif lionel. Brought one of the sch cello back. It was in a hard cover so it was so dam heavy. Had to carry all the way home. It sure is very troublesome but i guess it should be worthy. Haha.

Went to bugis with aileen, jian ming, v^2 and zhong ying. Seems like the "teens zone" in bugis junction already "dao bi" le. GG!!! Lol. There's only 2 shops selling clothes which is within my budget and my style of clothes - Samuel&Kelvin n IP Zone. Eh i bought only 1 T shirt nia from IP zone whereas jian ming bought 4 or 5 T shirts sia. Haha! I was thinking it's best if i can get myself at least 2 or more clothes but majority gtg.

On my way back wif aileen n jian ming, they decided to acc me to buy some more clothes. Thanks to them i gotten myself another t shirts lol. It was a really tiring day. Jian ming n i like kinda cant walk liao cause leg too tired. Haha. Girls sure rule at shopping lol. Oh ya ys last min got work so cant come. Sad sia den forgot to ask guo qiang along somemore. Haha. B4 i forgot, i remember vian told me she'll look out more clothes for me sia. Hmm.. haha. That's poly life man. Troubled about wad clothes to wear to school. Something good bout jc, don need to care so much sia, compulsory to wear the same uni as everyone. LOL.

So long nvr blog liao. Feel so lazy blogging. Haha. Btw this picture is the 1735 rush hour camp at Kota Tinggi. Didnt regret going there. Know more ppl now. Haha. Taking private cello lessons de plan cancelled le due to financial prob but thanks god at least now i gotten 3 new cello books for me to practise n study first b4 the time comes for me to take the lesson. Well, hope to spend the holiday efficiently by playing games, practising cello and lastly train my body. Gotta do something wif it afterall my fig is wad always bother me most. Haha.

Back from the bible camp. Really glad to once again see those sp cf bro n sis in christ again. Hmm i had a hard time trying to understand n digest wad is being taught n it seems like i failed. Somemore i leader n had to depend on the team members w/o contributing. It was kinda stress of cos but it was indeed definitely fun to get to play n chat with them. Haha. Kept falling sick during the camp also so was sleepy n tired during the lesson so i couldnt really concentrate.

Something i cannot deny is LOL, i actually was able to fig out who my angel is. Haha. So obvious. Haha. Well end of this camp would also meant the 2 weeks my dad need is up also. From wad i see now, it's impossible for him to actually agree to let me take up private cello lesson but well, i will keep that in my prayers.

My skins started to peel already also. Even my head!!! Dam disgusting. If u see it u will vomit. But heng today recover liao. Phew! Nw i return home also sian. Wif my mum here always nagging at me, asking me to find a job, sometimes i really cant stands her. Wonder how long will my patience lasts.

Went for the chinese service today, saw vivian sitting alone at the side of the church hall or something waiting for her turn to play the piano. Then after church went to cwp to have my lunch wif my family den went to woodgrove to buy a chicken lol. Dono y woodgrove here suddenly got this mini "pasamalam" my mum n i went to take a look. I guess i was lucky, my first time seeing a cello music album n i purchased it, it's by yo-yo ma. Listening to the cd now, yo-yo ma is indeed amazing. His cello pieces sure you gan dong dao wo de xin.

Oh ya, btw just discovered that my head also kana sun burn LOL! When i comb my hair i can feel the pain also. Hope i can recover by tml morning when i go for the camp. Thinking of the camp again, hmm... makes me worried. Lead my seniors? That's nt an easy job for me definitely, had been a leader since sec sch but nvr a leader to lead my seniors, the most is ppl of my age. So this time round, it's indeed a big challenge for me. I believe gold has his purpose for me, just have to obey. Btw, one more week to go b4 my dad come into a decision to whether he can afford my private cello lesson. My goal may seem so much easier to achieve if this plan goes on. Was so eager to take up private lesson last month but recently it seems like i'm getting more restless. Dono y.

Left house towards sentosa at 7.15am today. Haha! It's my first class outing this yr. Everything turned out very well. It did not rain which we expected it to happen but the weather was dam hot that almost all of us got sun burnt. I didnt feel the pain when i left sentosa so thought i was ok. Eh but seems like i'm wrong! Haha. I got sunburn on my arm, back n face. Haha. It sure hurts alot esp my back. Anyway it was really fun today, having to play my first volleyball game n follow by my favourite basketball.

Scenery is indeed nice, erHEM, yea haha. After we had our last game of captain's ball in the sea, we proceeded to vivo to hav our dinner n went home. Haha. THis outing is indeed not just fun but i think it's important also. Seems like we have to go for outing in order to know more bout each other n to bond together as one. Next mon will be my bible camp liao. Dono y, suppose to be looking forward to the camp de but this time round, dono y but don have the feelings. Hope everything turns out well for the camp.